I don't know anymore

Posted by slovett on August 24, 2008 8:38 pm

Ok. So, I am 19 years old and already on my second marriage. I know, pretty sad, right? Well, my first husband I married when I was 15. I don't regret it. We have a beautiful daughter together. Even though we don't get along, we still both have joint custody. That marriage ended badly. But, everything happens for a reason. Husband number 2 is a wonderful guy. He's sweet, funny, sexy, everything a girl could ask for. When we first got together, it was like Heaven on Earth. Not long after, I got pregnant. Then, this past April, we got married. It seemed all well. But, lately things just aren't going well. Maybe it's because of our finacial issues. Or maybe we just don't feel for eachother like we used to. I miss how it used to be. When we loved eachother and you could actually see it. I mean, don't get me wrong. I love him very much. I don't want to lose him, but, Idk anymore. Just because I love him, it doesn't mean I'm happy. Maybe I'm just at a depressed state of mind right now. With everything that has been happening the past couple of years. I don't know what to do anymore. And with me being pregnant, I'm don't really feel "sexy". Therefore, I'm not to into sex. Which, he has a major issue with. He don't understand. Or care. Idk. I'm just confused I guess. I don't know what to do anymore. It's stressful.

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life so far...

Posted by heart in my hands on August 17, 2008 5:54 pm

i found my self to be in love with some one for the better half of a year.. "love" i thought! i had strong feelings for this man and yet something was never right.. i have never experienced any thing like this in my life.. i have always been alone.. and not in the creepy alone sense but i never felt those particular feelings... and the one year anniversary is coming up.. which made me think of all this.. any way it all started with a blueberry frappuccino... i was a barista at a Starbucks in my town, i always hated working the night shift but i had no life any way so i did it non the less. any way... i was working with my coworker and we were getting ready to close when we get a client, it was a guy and i thought he was really cute! light brown hair brown eyes, big lips.. the whole nine yards ( in my eyes any way) my coworker ran off on me so i had to help him. he made me so nervous lol... but non the less i had no idea he was gay so i made no big deal of it. while i helped this man my coworker kept giggling in the background... i made his drink while she charged him i handed him his drink and he went off on his way. she finally told me why she was laughing... according to her he was flirting like crazy with me! i had no idea what she was talking about so i just let it go.. well go figure... he comes back he slips me a piece of paper with his number on it... this has never happened to me before so i got kind of embarrassed... i didn't know what to do... i was attracted to him but this was all new to me.. i decided to call him two days later.. so we met up.. i was so nervous and him so confident.. i was 21 and he was 27 i knew nothing about him yet i decided to go for a drive.. need less to say i became some one i never thought i would. i had unprotected sex with him... it was the best i had ever had. he even came inside of me.... and i know i was stupid but i was young and i had never really done any thing like this.. right away he made it clear that it was just a fuck and that nothing was to become of it.. i said ok but i couldn't stop thinking about him. we ended up started talking and going out... (it turns out i can be very persuasive) lol.. any way.. it very soon became just me and him.. all the time i guess you can say i was his boyfriend and he was mine... but the title was never there.. dont get me wrong we were dating for a really long time.. and i finally told him i was falling in love with him while we were making love.. but he shot me down. it was the ugliest feeling in the world.. he said he just wasnt ready for a relationship but i still loved him.. i mean we never used a condom and he always came inside of me.. (and for those of you that dont understand this) ::its like a deep personal connection with someone else:: any way... i got really tired of paying for every thing and he never got a job so i had to cut him loose.. there was just no point in staying in a relationship that was not going to work it hurt but im not sure if it was love or not. since it was never mutual i dont know what to think. but now ive moved on but thats another story!

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My marriage

Posted by mrs drake on July 30, 2008 5:39 pm

my husband and i have been together 3 years and married a year and 7 months.before we got married our sex life was amazing and now sometimes it's only happening once a week,i miss my man.iam not purposely ignoring him,i don't know why most the time i don't want it.iam very attracted to my husband,he's a great looking man.it used to be that i couldn't keep my hands off him and now sometimes i don't even want him to kiss me.i love him so much.he's the love of my life.i want our sex life back....i miss my man.we went from almost everyday to sometimes once a week,it's awful,and there use to be a lot of passion and now it's almost all gone,i just don't know what to do.sometimes i think we should go see a sex therapist,but i don't know,wouldn't it be hard to talk to someone you don't know even though that's their job?ugh,i just don't know,but i know that something needs to change or iam going to go completely nuts!

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